Purpose

Everyone wants to find the reason for their existence. Sadly, only a few ever really understand their life’s purpose.

It’s so easy to feel lost when you don’t know where you’re going and why the journey there is necessary. I have been struggling to figure it out and I'm still in the process of establishing it. It’s been a beautiful journey into understanding the person I am and want to be, the values I cherish and how the way I live my life influences those around me. There’s a multitude of habits I’ve had to unlearn and different perspectives I had to develop but I'm doing it and I am completely in love with my life.

I've sort of gone through life simply existing. Not looking forward to the future because I had absolutely no vision as to how that would look for me besides the generic dream of owning a mansion, driving the latest cars, being married, having children and essentially living a cliché life. In school they tried to get my imagination going by asking ‘what do you want to be when you grow up?’ and my answer was always ‘I want to be a doctor’. All because 1. It’s a respectable profession, 2. In an African household it’s either you become a doctor or lawyer or engineer, so medicine was the option that resonated with me, and 3. The doctors I have seen live a very comfortable life. So the plan was very simple; complete my high school education and go straight to med school. But my oh my did life throw curveballs at me that made me reconsider all the decisions I had made, especially career-wise. That led to a sense of worthlessness, as though my life was pointless and empty and nothing was keeping me on this earth.

I had to seriously sit myself down and speak with God to ask what I’m even supposed to be doing with my life and that’s the moment I discovered the concept of purpose.

When I started asking God ‘Why are You keeping me on this earth with no sort of silver lining in sight?’ I slowly started to experience a shift in my perspective of life as I dragged myself through each day. It literally felt as though the person I had been was mercilessly broken down so the person I am meant to be can flourish. However painful and dreadful it was, I know I would not have survived certain curve balls thrown at me had I not allowed myself to go through the process of rediscovery and redirection.

Each day I wake up knowing there's a reason for my existence. That's the thing about purpose, you won't experience the beauty in each day until you're living life with a purpose.

So take a moment with yourself and God to figure it out.

Remember, the best teacher is experience. So by immersing yourself in life, finding what gives you a sense of deep accomplishment and leaning more into that will help you along the way. Even if you stumble, get back up and keep moving. You will absolutely know when you are walking in your purpose.